Dear Sedem,

if you’re seeing this now that means that you made it this far and I’d like to first and foremost thank you for not giving up on us. I have much more questions to ask( some things never change) than I have something of my own to share.
How’s life treating you? Do you still love the colour green? How about the book we spoke of almost three decades ago? Did you finally find the courage to bear your soul to the world?
But wait, how is he? No. Who is he? Is he everything you prayed for? Kind and thoughtful. A friend . One who lifts you up and complements you? Shares your joy and sorrows alike? Are you good to him? Do you pray for him?

I want to apologize for the times that I couldn’t love you. The days that I rejected you after others did. It was hard writing you this letter because what was I going to say? Would I be able to face you with the life that I’m living now? Is it enough? Should I yearn for more? Is this all there is or all I’d ever amount to? These are the questions that plagued me. but now that I’ve been able to, I’d like to do same with my younger self. She should be able to let go of any burden she carries and live and love and laugh and move on. I hope you became everything that you wanted to be: kind and brave and true and hopeful. I’m striving to be that person although it gets really hard some days.

I’m finally learning to drive. I’m well aware it took so long but I’m trying not to hate it. The frame of my glasses keeps breaking but I’m still refusing to see the optometrist because I’m not ready to hear my new diagnosis. I’m only hoping that you grew out of wearing glasses (if there’s anything as such). Whatever you became, I want to believe that you did your best. I’m hoping that you’re living your best self with no regrets and that inspite of all the negativity that the world gives you, you respond with love.I hope you’re surrounded with loved ones and joy and laughter and that everyday is an opportunity to pour goodness into the world. Keep going.

Yours sincerely
You, from the year 2023