The Year That Was

2024 is hard to describe. It was a year—in every sense of the word. There was the bright, the dark and the grey. What’s a year for me without some good old-fashioned gripping that doesn’t backfire at me?

This year had some what-the-heck moments, but I made it to the end with all my favorite people. Cheers!


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Dreams on Pause

I dreamt the least this year and had little to no expectations for myself. I was mostly in a state of tiredness and unenthusiastic. I wouldn’t recommend it, but also, I believe it’s okay. It happens.


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Waiting on Time

Sometimes, all we can do is wait on time to do its work. Somewhere in August, my heart was heavy and aching. I can’t describe how absolutely miserable it was. I felt alone and betrayed. All I wondered then was if it would pass.

I’ve never craved the sun like I did in July and August. Everything felt cold all the time. I craved the warmth. I longed for light—not just on my skin, but in my spirit.

I’m not without scars, but what I wanted to believe would keep me down forever didn’t.


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Building Resilience

I’d like to believe that I built some resilience this year. I’m capable of weathering storms—at least much better than previously.

That said, I have got to stop repeating mistakes. That one is entirely on me. Luckily, I’ve got people who help me strive to do that.


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Letting Go

“You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.” – Bob Marley

This year, I actually practiced letting go of certain situations. P.S. I had no choice. After all the groundwork, I guess it was time to do some construction.

Letting go was one of the most difficult things to do. Aside from the occasional sadness, it gave me so much peace and clarity. I’ve come to know that not everything can be fixed, and that’s okay.

Sometimes, I’m reminded that all I did was loosen my grip—and that alone made a world of difference.


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Words Matter

This year, I learned the weight of my own words. What I said to myself wasn’t always kind, and I had to pay the price for that for a long period. I lived the consequences of the damning words I spoke about myself.

Words matter. What we say to ourselves hangs over us. As I’ve learned: Be careful what you say to yourself, because you’re listening.


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Gratitude and Lessons

I’m thankful for the constants in a time of chaos. I’d say the latter part of this year was better than the former—and that’s something I wished for myself. I don’t like the bittersweet endings of previous years. I just want to feel light, grateful, and hopeful.

I’m grateful for the constants that carried me through. I’m grateful for life. I’m grateful for lessons I never asked for (what other choice have I got?).