For a month that passed by as quickly as it came, it does feel like it’s been an eternity. This month has had so many things compressed in it.
I’m here to tell you I finally laid my bed this month. Why am I sharing this unnecessary detail?

September had me in a slump. For most hours of the day for several days, I had low moods and little to no interest in things I did easily.The littlest of issues easily sends me to a crisis mode. I was anxious all the time.
Now, none of this is new to me. I just have been unable to talk about them.

I spent the first week of September at a conference in Takoradi – it was the first time for me: both the conference and going to Takoradi. It was something I have been looking forward to, however, I barely enjoyed the experience.
I took ill in Takoradi and had to visit the hospital there before I had a little strength to travel back home.

I got better gradually when I returned home. However, I was tired all the time and had little energy. I had to deal with a few changes when I returned from the conference too. I don’t do well with changes at all – I’m comfortable with the familiar. Aren’t we all?

It’s been hard completing a book, although this was something that came so easily to me. My bed has been unlaid for weeks as well. I’m not sure why I didn’t lay it – maybe I didn’t want to give myself a false sense of progress or the idea that everything was okay.

It’s difficult to explain these things to people because on the outside, you look well. You smile and talk to people and go about every day like it’s a normal day. How then does anyone understand that you’re unwell when the outside is saying otherwise?

I’ve been struggling with decision-making regarding my personal life for as long as I can remember. I will shed more light on this later. It was easier not to make a decision this month than to make one that I wasn’t sure of. Indeed, this life is tainted with so many uncertainties. So, for September, I allowed myself not to decide on some things even though they kept haunting me.

In Michelle Obama’s book, ‘The Light we Carry’ , she wrote about the POWER OF SMALL, and I believe that’s what I channelled in this final few days of September.
Michelle shares that sometimes things can get too big and overwhelming to handle. When this happens, she advises that we move towards the direction of something small. We do this by putting something small alongside the big thing which gives the pleasure of a small feat or accomplishment.

So here I am to say that I laid my bed a few days ago.Who cares if the pillow cases are mismatched?I finally completed a book(you know a review is most likely in progress).It might not be much, but at the moment, it’s enough, and I shared the immense joy I felt after doing these with someone.

If September was too challenging for you and all you could do was get out of bed each morning, I’m here to commend you as well. For holding on.
I hope October showers us with some graciousness. Cheers!